Happy New Year!!

Alrighty.. 

It's February 9th and I just blogged about December.  

That's okay with me.

I have been busy.

I have finally gotten the outline of my bumper to stay indented into the couch cushion when I get up.

It was hard.

But I did it.

But really, I want to write down my 2011 resolution so that I can come back and read this

 if I should start to struggle.  

In 2010, I came across some weird struggles.  

I found out I was pregnant after almost a year of trying

and I quit my job after 8 years of wanting to.

Sweet huh?

I was absolutely miserable.
Those two little changes, really changed my whole world.
Really, in every sense of the word.
MY LIFE HAS CHANGED A LOT!!
I cannot emphasize that enough.
My hourly, daily, weekly life has changed.
EXPONENTIALLY.
And everyone elses around me has stayed the same.
That has been really weird, and hard for me.
Just so we are clear on that.
Lots of change.
Lots.

Okay.. Moving on.

For one thing, I was totally sick.. as previously mentioned, which is enough to make anyone crazy

and, I had to re establish my identity as a valuable member of my household..
..and society..

That's the short of it.
We will leave it at that.

I have honestly been the most agitated, annoyed, ornery, mean, girl since June!

Maybe not every minute, maybe not even every day, but at least every so often..

That really isn't in my character.
I have always prided myself in being pretty tolerant, nice person.

I maintain that being pregnant is a good excuse for this... But I hate excuses..

I honestly don't know how my family has put up with me.

Soo.. 

My new years resolution is this:

To maintain happiness & joy within myself!
Without Ryan having to be a perfect husband..
Side note:
He is near perfect.  Really. He is honestly, beyond very great.
 However, I just don't think that any man can meet the expectations of a pregnant woman...
Just a thought..
Anyways..
Without Ryan having to be perfect, my house being perfect, Tatum being perfect, weekends being perfect, hair being perfect, body being perfect, homework being perfect, friends being perfect,
Without a comma being deposited into my checking account every other Friday..
Without church being perfect.. or being perfect in church i guess...
family being perfect, holidays being perfect..
You get my point.. To just have joy in being me!
Don't get me wrong, I have always been very grateful for my life.
I am fully aware that I am BEYOND blessed in this little corner of the world.
But, even with that, I have found things to complain and be agitated about.
I have found that sooo many women do that.
What is wrong with us?
It's like, if we don't have something to B about, we are not "connecting" with others?
Its stupid.  And I don't want any part of it.
Life is to short to look for any connection but a joyful one.

So.. back to the beginning of my post.
It is Feb. 9th and I'm posting about my new years resolution.
This is a bonus, because I can tell you about my progress!

It has been great!
Just simply making the decision to be happy has made a world of difference!

I can't recall any real moments of annoyance that has lasted longer than 2 minutes.
When I feel that coming on, I just talk myself down from it.
It really has been so easy!
Just a little conversation between myself, and my head (weird?)
is all it has taken.
I have been more patient, happier, and JOYFUL.
It has also been very fulfilling to know that
 I DO HAVE CONTROL!
I am in charge of my own life.
And that, above all is something that I have always treasured knowing in life.
It reminds me of my favorite saying..

"Luck has a way of favoring those who do not depend on it"

Love that!

I forgot for awhile, but I am back, and I cannot wait to exercise that control in my new journey!
I cant wait to instill that knowledge in my kids (love the plural there) and in my home.
I cant wait to see what I can grow my newly found, newly expanded control into!

Maybe I will get skinny AND healthy?
Who knows..

But, so far, I am feelin good, and feelin like the sky is the limit!

YES!!

P.S.. When post pardom depression hits me in about 2 weeks here, will some of you post some inspiration on my facebook or something?
 I may have an uphill battle here pretty quick to feel the way I am feeling today.

Even so.
I know I will be back!